March 26, 2007

I can't let go anymore. It's just too deep. The only thing I can possibly do is to keep my focus. After the "self-awareness" session earlier at wm's house, I'm much clearer abt how to go about striking the 'perfect' balance b/w my relationships and studies. I'm back on track now. Don't worry doraemon. =]

Self-destruction. LOL. Not so serious lahs. It's like as if..there are only 2 possbile outcomes on the route I'm taking now. One is to the road of self-destruction. The other would be success. I'm heading for the latter. And I assure you, I'll be able to achieve it. The mind is a powerful thing. Can't be defeated.

Have I really changed? That much? Maybe I've evolved to the sort of person who thinks too much. When all these thoughts explode within me, it'll be the end of my path. Eh? LOLs. Besides this minor change, My priorities have changed too. Relationships with anyone remains at the top of my list. People aren't permanent. Exams are. They'll be here forever.

Overall, I'm still me. The hyperactivity in me only surfaces after 1opm; as usual. I'm still the half obedient, half rebellious teen. Still as short. Still love chocolates. xD If I really don't wanna do something, no amount of compelling is able to change my mind. Linking back to the prev posts, the recent saturday. If I didn't wanna go with my dad, I would not have. Going home with him have only confirmed my priorities. I was never such a free girl. I should thank my parents for even allowing me to stay overnight at a friend's house. How do I then, even have the heart to defy them? Thank you daddy mummy. <3333

I think the greatest change ever.. would be the fact that I've stopped daydreaming too much. Now that part of those daydreams have changed into reality. <3 darling. Get well soon!

Kirt.

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