March 19, 2007

I don't like her anymore.

Well,.. I won't say I don't like her entirely. But,.. Afterall, she was once my best friend. Just last year... our relationship became very shaky. Wavered. It can never return to it's original state. 3 parties involved. We're not talking like we used to before. Only Amanda and I can communicate. Bella. Well. She got attached last year. She isn't straight. Her girlfriend isn't nice. She said my haircut sux. =( And that I was the one who began that haircut trend. Crap. -_- She's mean. Too straightforward? I don't know. I don't care.

Since the start of this year, Amanda & I have been discussing. Thoughtfully. She got pissed. I got pissed. Very pissed. Bella. Self absorbed into a world of her own. With her gf. Their world consists only of each other. They have eyes for only each other. Are all 'BGR's like that? I wonder. Self centeredness? Neglect? Is she enjoying the attention of someone showering affection over her?

I've sort of came to a realisation. Do I even exist in her world? I don't know. I don't wanna know. I don't care anymore. I don't even wanna answer her calls. Coz.. I know all she wants to talk about..would be homework. I feel used. There's only homework linking the both of us.

It's over.

Our once 'perfect' friendship. I can't communicate with her. It's difficult. Awkward. I've tried to salvage this relationship. But I feel that she's doing nothing at all to do likewise. I seriously have no more energy and time to bother about this dying relationship of ours.

She's still my friend though. Things can never return to what It used to be. Never.

-Kirt.

P/s: I'm fine. =]

.weiming
shouted at 21:31