May 9, 2007

Today hasn't been going well for me. Thank you for the heavy downpour. And I wanted to swim. Hm. But I mean it when I say thank you. Don't bother reading too deeply into my words coz I'm very literal most of the times. To put it bluntly, superficial at times. That is, with my words.

Physics paper was horrid today. There goes my 1. There's still that tiny bit of chance though, but it's being overwhelmed by that huge proportion of darkness. Stupidity. Carelessness. Stress. Kae. I suck. But at 9.30am sharp. I tried to console myself. Just learn from your mistakes and don't repeat them.

Actually.. I always say that; after every single paper I feel I've done badly. I bet I'm not the only one who says that. But face it. How many of us can actually say that and feel good? Or less bad? Learn and learn. Some pple don't learn from their mistakes ya know. Or. People like me have to make the same mistake over and over again before realising how stupid I was. When I look back. And it's inevitable that the sour feeling still lingers for some time b4 you can actually get over things or decisions you wish you had not done or made.

Time heals everything and leave scars. Good scars, bad ones. Good scars make you reflect and learn. The latter just stains your heart. Black. Not dark blue. BLACK. Nice colour. But anyway, .. After letting everything out via paragraphs of words, I should feel a lil' better. Love this form of communication. Everything's found in it.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON MY GOD DAMNED PHYSICS. LET ALONE GIVE UP ON MYSELF.
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`kirt.

.weiming
shouted at 12:48