August 26, 2007

IT GONA BE A LONG WORDY POST FOLKS!

Dont know whats wrong with me. Dont know whats wrong with you. Things has nt gone smooth as it seem eh. Everything happens near the exam periods. Maybe because of stress? or other things i dont know. I wont let myself die jus like that. Its somehow emotional blackmail when u say its none of your business its mine.

It doesn't feel good. U dont like it either when i tease you or scold you. I dont mind u teasing me or scolding me. I can take it. But i know u cant. Its easy to take word that makes you happy but not words that angers or upset u. U asked why i chose u out of the so many girls in singapore? I'll tell u again and again. I love u without a reason. Love is blind. Love is selfish. Dont bother about the bad stuffs but concentrate on the good ones.

It will always be the boring old stuff i'm gona say to you. I'm gona be myself and change for the better. I dont want to live today nt being myself and regret tmr in hell. Life is unbelieving short and precious. I might jus get knock down by a freaking car tmr and regret not doing anything that i like.

Its not that i dont like studying. If i want to study i will. I wont let myself die in the exam hall not knowing what to do. I have survived pretty long enough on myself. Dont worry about me so much. Yea studying is for our future i know. Your cert, qualification and blah blah blah~~ But so what if u have all those. This things are pretty materialistic. If given a choice of being a total study arse and being myself as a normal arse. I would choose myself. Its not like everyday you get to play. For us guys, our play time is up when we enter NS. Which is like less than 2 years for me?

Geez this is getting out of topic. Anyways a wrong word out of you or rather me is deadly. It meant a change in mood for that whole day and even drag till a few days. Seriously its hard to make u happy sometimes. I wouldnt like to see u having a grumpy or upset face everyday. Worst of all not knowing why. Dont keep things to yourself. Shoot it out at me. I'm your FREAKING PUNCHBAG!! i'm nt some roadside twigs or plants which would break that easily. SO PLS stop those nothings and NOTHINGS .___.

Ok sometimes its me who is not paying attention but most of the time u are speaking pretty softly when u want to tell me something. U dont like it either when i say nothing. and i guess neither of us would like it when we both is trying to squeeze the things out of each other. And it doesn't mean that we should have lesser communication. Its escaping rather than solving the problem. Blaming you or blaming me aint solving anything. Yea i said all this loads of time. And its getting pretty naggy too.

NOW! To apologize for the STRAIGHT.ness and BLUNT.ness of my words ._______. and the STUPID GIPNESS of me. next is the INSENSITIVE.ness, BEING AND ARSE.ness. OK. THATS ALL FOLKS!

_wm
u will always be my sha baobei
<3

.weiming
shouted at 23:53